A difficult one

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Today has not been the best day. Body and mind conspired against me and I've spent most of the day not able to do anything. Pain levels left me either in bed or on the couch, fatigue had me napping. I have no attention span so distracting myself has been difficult, out came the Harry Potter movies

Two of my best friends, Jessica & Ashley, came around to see me this afternoon after I messaged them to say I was low. They came, bringing coffee and donuts, snuggled up under blankets. We watched Harry Potter & The Philosopher's Stone - and didn't complain when I fell asleep on them.

I've played around a bit online this evening. Found an anxiety support online community, commented on the most recent post... then looked at the date and realised it was 18 months old. Now feeling very anxious about ability to interact with people and failure at internet etiquette :(

And now I think I'm going back to bed

Comments

[fever_dreaming]

Hello! Thanks for the add. It's nice to meet you (: I also deal with anxiety. It sucks. It sounds like you have some really good friends ♥

[stringlights]

You're welcome, thanks for adding me back - and nice to meet you too. Anxiety seriously sucks, it tries really hard to ruin my life and it would be SO easy to just let it. But my friends are the best in the world and they totally understand that sometimes all I'm capable of is sitting and watching a movie. They also won't let me become a hermit :)

How do you manage parenting and teaching and running the household with anxiety - any tips you can pass on?

[fever_dreaming]

It's rare to come across friends that are that amazing!

Oh that is a very good question. I couldn't do it if it weren't for the huge support system I have. My husband, parents, and grandparents. They are always there to catch me when I fall. My husband helps out a ton when he is home, so I got very lucky in that department. My parents, grandparents, and in-laws help with the kids, too, when I need a break. Just making sure to set aside time to be something other than a mom is a huge deal! Making sure I take care of myself (which is so hard when you have so many others to take care of!) is also a must, because I can't take care of anyone or anything else if I'm not taken care of. It's hard, I won't lie. Even with all the help I have there are still days that I would give anything to just crawl in bed and never get up. There are a lot of days that the t.v. is my baby-sitter... and sometimes I feel guilty for that, but, hey, you gotta do what you gotta do!!

[stringlights]

Thank you :)

[enemyofperfect]

I think I know the community you mean, and I've sometimes regretted how quiet it's gotten, so if anything, I would admire you for commenting on an older entry! But sometimes anxiety seems to hit especially hard when there's anything else to soften you up for it, and it sounds like you've had plenty today. :(

I hope you don't mind my adding you -- between your lovely comment and the fact that you and amovingtarget are already subscribed to each other, you seem like a cool person to know!

[stringlights]

I didn't think of it like that - that's an excellent way of turning the anxiety on it's head and seeing it from another POV. Thank you! :)

And of course I don't mind you adding me, I've added you back and thank you again :D

[enemyofperfect]

Aww, you're very welcome! And it's always great meeting new people here on Dreamwidth.

[stringlights]

Meeting new people is fast becoming one of my favourite things about Dreamwidth!

[skyblue_reverie]

I totally relate to the internet etiquette thing; I've done the exact same thing. And the fatigue thing too. *hugs* You are doing the best you can and that is all that anyone can ask. (This is what I tell myself when I am having a tough day.)

[stringlights]

Thank you *hug back*